It feels like shit and makes you look so vulnerable. You want to be strong but it’s a difficult task.
I was bullied in 8th, 9th and 10th by a group of students.
In 8th I hit puberty and obviously there are many changes that take place in your body. Puberty was not a sweet and smooth phase for me. I had lots of acne and lots of hair growth on my body. As it is, it was difficult for me to deal with so many sudden changes.
To make matters worse this gang of people used to make constant fun of my body, my face, my hair and much more. They constantly passed mean remarks and had no humanity at all with absolutely no regards for someone’s feelings. They indulged in “ Body Shaming”.
I was a very shy and introverted person and didn’t speak much and this kinda situation made me retract into my shell more and more. They used to make fun of me how I wasn’t cool enough and didn’t wear fashionable and short clothes that mostly girls wore in our school and how I didn’t go for movies or did anything fun which was fun according to their definition like partying, drinking, hooking up, smoking.
I hail from a conservative and a middle class family with not so many resources at my expense and my only goal was to study diligently and reach my goals. They used to constantly fire mean remarks as to how I was a book worm and mugged up things. Which was so not true as I studied everyday for 4-5hrs and had a very good memory due to God’s grace.
What made me more sad was there were girls in the group who used to Participate in this kind of emotional bullying that too against one more girl. I completely lost my confidence by end of 10th std and was low on self esteem and was very self concious.
In my opinion, such kind of people are themselves broken from inside and just pretend to be strong on the exterior. They get a sense of superiority by putting others down. They themselves are psychotic and need help. They thrive in attention.
My mistake was I didn’t complain to my counselor which I should have done and told my parents about it so a strict action could be taken against them right away.
Many people who are bullied don’t say anything because of the immense fear that is instilled into their hearts. And my advice to anyone who is being bullied is to open up to some adult whom you can trust and lodge a complaint against such people as all this is highly unacceptable.
That girl during a throw ball game purposely threw the ball at my mouth and since I had braces I got a deep cut from inside my lips and started bleeding profusely. I should have taken a dire step then and there but I couldn’t due to fear.
Bullying is a punishable crime and shouldn’t be tolerated by anyone. It leaves a scar on your heart and mind forever.
And these people also passed sexually provocative remarks against me like sleep with me and what not, and a guy used to make very derogatory remarks with respect to women to me like “eat my shit bitch” . This kind of behavior on their parts shows the kind of upbringing their parents raised them with and what kind of values their family has given them.
Now when I reflect on those times, I feel all that has made me stronger and I learnt to stand up for myself. And now I don’t tolerate any kind of shit from others. I stayed focused on my studies and made into a medical college by merit and got a mbbs seat.
I would suggest anyone who is undergoing bullying should report to a responsible adult or police or help line no. And seek adequate help and lodge a complaint against them so an action can be taken.
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